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Letter to My Son
When I look at your beautiful face, son,
I see an ocean of ancestors.
I see my eyes,
the eyes of my father
and his father before him.
I see your dad’s expressions,
his inner child.
I see history and the future
all rolled into one.
I see God’s love and mercy
to have placed your care
into my hands.
When I see you smile and your eyes
it’s like seeing the world through you,
full of wonder and impossible joy.
When you look pensive,
my mind automatically goes
to all the ways I’m failing you.
You see, my son,
I’m a glass half empty kind of person,
and I know, despite my best efforts,
I’ve passed that worldview onto you.
I want to be the one to rise above it,
to show you that it can be done.
As I see you growing older,
your curiosity being leached from within,
your twinkle getting tarnished,
I think of all the ways this world is failing you.
Let’s be part of the solution,
you and I.
Let’s flip the system.
Let’s turn the mirror right way round.
Let’s fill that glass to the very top,
heck, let it overflow.
There’s never any lack of love here,
that is the biggest myth of all.
We just need to stop blocking love’s flow.
It won’t always take the shape we imagined.
It will sometimes be more hardship than hearts,
more resilience than roses,
more patience than passion,
but remember, dear,
tears are Divine kisses, too.
Don’t hold on too tightly to anything,
not even the identity you’ve so carefully constructed.
Let it all flow,
let it all go,
let love be your strength,
not your weakness.
If you’re going to hold on tightly to anything, my son,
let it be the One,
let it be His Rope,
and let it take you where it will.
Each Moment is Longing
Each moment is longing,
holding my breath to see,
what You have in store for me.
Each moment is pure desire,
hope bubbling up like dew,
discontent clouding the air,
tears like weapons of despair.
Each moment is full
of my ignorance,
my owned yet disowned arrogance
that I must control the narrative.
In truth, each moment is a gift,
a delicious unwrapping, unravelling
of sign after sign after sign,
all perfectly sensual and divine.
The universe erupted
from Your desire to be known,
our lives a series of cycles
of longing to return.
This being waits with quivering impatience,
avoiding hurdle after hurdle to see,
what exactly it is
You have in store for me.
When will she stop resisting
the floods of love meant to break her,
and surrender to the stillness and storms,
seeing only the light that will take her?
A Claim I Will Never Make
It is a claim I will never make,
an accusation I will never deny,
the power I possess scares me,
leaves me too terrified to even try
to make a choice, to take that step,
to find a way to ascend,
releasing all my crutches,
no longer having to pretend.
You are my One,
You are my Only,
How could I think
choosing You’d make me lonely?
The closer I get,
the warmer Your embrace,
the heartbreak I always feared,
suddenly so much easier to face.
My ‘I’ has driven me to torment.
Allow me to fully unpeel and dissolve.
Let my ‘I’ die before dying.
Oh Beloved, please help me evolve.
This pain is a most torturous ally,
a disguise for ecstasy, most sly.
It is a claim I will never make,
an accusation I will never deny.
The Ultimate High
Once I experienced the Ultimate High,
my life couldn’t possibly hold the same lure.
I could return to a flavorless existence,
or I could keep coming back for more.
Now, prayer is no longer a chore,
but a love letter in motion,
Your remembrance is never forced,
but a daydream to get lost in.
I want every book I read,
every movie I view,
every conversation I have
to revolve around You.
Surrounded by other lovers,
I gaze deeply into their eyes,
looking for my reflection,
till the early hours of sunrise,
talking about sacred whispers,
transcendent states, lifted veils,
facing our inner demons,
enduring our personal travails.
All else pales in comparison.
One taste of You is so sweet,
so divinely succulent,
one bite and I feel complete.
I keep coming back for more.
What tasteless mire
was I eating before?
I Need This Prayer More Than You Do
I need this prayer more than You do.
It brings me solace.
It stills time.
I need this prayer more than You do,
to distract myself from all other distractions,
hide away from the incessant noise,
tuck myself into child’s pose,
connecting with the earth
and all its myriad wonders.
I need this prayer more than You do.
It gives me discipline,
reminding me where I came from,
and to where I will return.
You say I must pray,
despite infinite angels at Your behest,
despite knowing the exact state of my soul,
the direction of my journey,
the judgement that awaits me.
Sometimes I remember to pray
and sometimes I don’t,
but one thing I know for sure is,
I need this prayer more than You do.
Without it, I wouldn’t know
where to begin,
how to carry on,
or when to finally fall.
This prayer is my refuge.
Each word I recite is a bridge
that I hope will carry me
from here to eternity.
Sparking magic and wonder in an innocent child’s eyes,
autumn trees swathed in emeralds, rubies and citrine,
summertime sunsets reflected in still waters,
the sound of steam rising from a kettle,
sharing long-held secrets with a trust-worthy confidante,
stolen kisses with a long-time love,
gentle breezes skirting past during evening walks,
and the tingling sensation of reuniting with your Beloved:
Moments borrowed from heaven.
Moments that make you wish
you weren’t so numb.
Moments that make you yearn
for the courage to feel
these blissful reminders
of Bliss itself.
The Beginning of the End
The beginning of the end for me
was the day I finally saw You for You.
Before that, you were just a name to bandy about,
a pacifier for those who had no clue.
You were to be more feared than loved,
that was simply the order of the day.
At least, that’s what I had been told,
and I wasn’t one to disobey.
Ironically, the moment
I felt You close by,
was when breaking the rules,
this I cannot deny.
Yet still, You revealed to me
a deep truth from within,
hidden under layers
of worldly din.
I believed at the center
of my lonely, lonely heart
that You didn’t love me,
I was somehow apart.
That belief shaped my actions,
my relationships, my core.
How could I flip this thought
so deeply stitched into my lore?
The answer is slowly and gently,
bouyed by the strength of Your love.
Could there be a stronger force
in this earthly world or above?
Now that I know You are on my side,
anything and everything seems possible.
An entire lifetime has been examined,
motivations analyzed and found tossable.
Frameworks have been readjusted,
future plans left open for guidance to come.
Some things are ending, others just beginning.
It feels like I’m mourning, my heartstrings a’strum.
As I bury my former self in the ground,
I wonder how long this grief will last.
I beg You, please, don’t give up on me,
as I overcome my treacherous past.
What will the other side look like,
I ask every day.
You present me with options
to choose from, but nay!
we’ll chose together,
You and I.
We’ll rebuild this life from love, not fear.
Even when I’m alone, I’ll know You’re near.
And this I can say
one hundred percent,
my heart has grown porous,
there’s no more cement.
I live only for You
and whatever good I can do,
till the end of time,
till the end of mine.
House of Mirrors
Some days this world is like a snow globe
in the hands of a gleeful child
being shaken with force and fury,
snowstorms, hurricanes, wildfires, riled.
Other days this world is like a house of mirrors,
each speck of love and good will
reflected from one crystalline heart to another,
multiplied, magnified, distilled.
Our crystal hearts come in all shapes and shine,
rubies, emeralds, sapphires, divine,
slate grey stones, cloudy pebbles,
prismatic diamonds, onyx rebels.
Some are cracked, some have coating,
bubble-wrapped or free-floating.
Some have dark stains, deeply set,
Others are polished, gleaming with sweat.
Each light reflects and absorbs
the One True Guiding Light.
Though we sense it all around us,
it blinds even the sharpest sight.
This life is like a treasure hunt,
with clues and signs at every turn,
nudging us in the right direction,
each prize, another truth to learn.
As I gaze upon the night sky,
I wonder if our microscopic atoms
revolve in synchronous dance with
our universe’s planetary patterns.
We started out as only One,
then separated into dualities,
branched into clans and countries,
created divisive mentalities.
How seriously we take this illusory life,
how foolishly we resist our intuition.
Surely, it leads those who listen with care,
to eternal peace and submission.
Come a Little Closer
Sometimes it feels like I’m always sad
and things will never be any other way.
The void within will continue to grow,
as will this angst and constant searching
for something I may never get.
Is it an all-consuming purpose?
The truth about life?
Or just the truth about my life?
Although living this privileged existence on the outside,
my spirit feels as restless as a wandering dervish,
always in search of the truth,
looking for beauty and love
in every speck and every soul,
in every corner of this world.
Sometimes I wonder if I have a beautiful soul.
But what good is it if there’s no one to see it,
to recognize it
and appreciate it?
It’s never meant much to me to have a pretty face,
that is what matters to most.
You are the only One who truly knows me,
but I hardly know You.
The closer I try to get,
the farther I seem to move away
from the people of this world,
their to do lists,
their visions for the future.
I wish I could meet You,
but instead I try to gather You,
like items on a scavenger hunt,
from your most fragile forms,
like the petals of a flower
or the nuanced brushstrokes of a breaking dawn,
to your most resplendent creations,
like the lush and lofty trees of the rainforests
or the majestic star-lit sky.
From the concrete columns of architectural marvels
to the intangible emotions of a couple lost in love,
I collect each piece of you
and add it to the void within,
hoping for a sense of closeness,
a glimpse of paradise,
a soulful balm.
I often wonder if You’re watching me from above
or deep within
and laughing at my exertions
trying so hard
to feel so close
to the One who is already
Why is joy so hard to experience?
Why are guilt and fear so deeply ingrained in our psyches?
Why are these invisible bonds so impossible to break?
These cloaks of despair so hard to shake?
You say You’re closer to us than our jugular vein.
Why, then, is it so hard to feel You?
Are you hidden in my tears?
Are you blended in my breath?
Because then I might understand
why I cry so much,
why I sigh so much.
Sometimes I think
you ask too much
Or perhaps I am one of your weaker creations,
to serve what purpose, I do not know,
except to feel
What do I do with all this love,
with all this longing?
How do I spend this life
so far away from You?
You think it’s time
to come a little closer,
so I may finally experience
before this life is over.