Inspired by Rumi’s “The Root of the Root of Your Self”
When I tune the whole world out
in order to look in,
I look for the why behind the why behind the why.
Why…do I feel so alone?
When I know that You are with me
everywhere I go.
Why…do I forget Your presence?
When I can see Your signs all around me –
water curled up in the clouds,
the freshest air atop the tallest peaks,
Your grand design woven through the very chrysalis of creation,
as mankind grows and evolves,
sinks and dissolves,
paints the world in ugly colors,
turns its mess into a masterpiece.
Why…do I not see Your signs,
even when my eyes are wide open?
Is it You who placed this veil on my heart,
or my inner demons who blinded me
by lulling me into soulless slumber?
Why…do I still then feel pain,
despite every attempt to be numb?
Is this a punishment for my many transgressions,
or a merciful reminder,
more bitter than sweet,
of the ache,
the longing,
to be whole again?
If you look for the why behind the why behind the why,
the answer to every question is You,
Your infinite love,
Your magnificent mercy,
Your enigmatic plan.
When I tune the whole world out
in order to look in
what I’m really doing
is meeting You at our favorite rendezvous,
dancing around You like a giggly school girl,
trying to get as close as I can.
What I’m really doing
is looking for the One
Who never gives up on me,
brings me gifts wrapped in pain,
wrapped in pleasure,
sends me love notes in every song I hear,
writes me poems in every word I read,
breaks my heart
only to put it back together again,
reminding me every second of every day
how dearly I am loved.
When the weight of the world overwhelms me,
I just look for the why behind the why behind the why
because that’ s our special spot,
and it’s a date for which You’re never late.
So beautifully expressed – ” brings me gifts wrapped in pain wrapped in pleasure” is such an eloquent way to put it. XXX
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Thank you, lovely!❤️
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Thank-you. Relentless grim news, easy to feel so alone…
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True. These are such difficult times, Esther. I hope you and your loved ones are doing well and staying resilient. Thank you for your comment.❤️
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Yes. I am all about the questions and the why behind the why. That’s where the magic lives. AMEN
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❤️❤️❤️
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